As much as I don't care to admit it, I am addicted to facebook. I love reading about what everyone is doing, seeing their pictures, watching their kids grow. Part of what I love about Facebook is watching people air their dirty laundry. Watching someone share pieces of their life that should (in my eyes) kept private. Even though I think these things should be kept private, I still read about it.
Another thing, Facebook can both make you feel better and worse about your situation that the same time. These people airing their dirty laundry? They are way worse off than I, because I don't really have that dirty laundry to air. But then their are the people who are in a great place, maybe a place you want to be, physically or emotionally. Maybe they are super fit, or they are living in some wonderful place, or maybe they are just really happy with themselves.
Then there is all the random shit on facebook. I am so sick of seeing "give this kid with cancer 1 billion likes" or "like if you love jesus, ignore if you don't". Seriously? neither cancer nor jesus care about facebook likes. Then all the "woe is me" stories that turn out to be pathological liars? Where someone was discriminated against and thousands of people donated money or gifts, and the person turned out to be a liar? Those make me me a little jaded about all the "oh no, poor me" stories on facebook. Who can you really trust when we are all behind computer screens?
Recently, two private groups I am a part of had serious drama. Drama that has caused people to leave/be removed from both groups. Although I wasn't directly involved with either dramatic instance, I found myself lurking and reading all the posts, almost feeding off the drama. I found my heart racing to see what would be said next. Looking back at these I think I need to stop caring too much about other peoples lives, and focus on my own.
I'm not leaving forever, hell I will likely be back on tonight. But I need to scale back the presence of facebook in my day. I need to refocus and not have facebook be the first thing I look at on my phone each morning. I need to not take a bunch of pictures and have my first thought be "that'll be a great profile picture!" And mostly I need to stop caring what drama is going on in other peoples lives. I am half tempted to leave all the groups I am a part of on facebook, but some of them have real good friends, and it's nice to have a private place you can go to a group of like minded (or at least similar minded) people to weigh in on something, like parenting or christmas gift ideas for your husband.
I will not deactivate my account, I am not going to lurk and just not post, but I am going to step back and refocus on what's important on the internet.
Cats.









