Goal

I need to find my focus, I've never been able to focus. I barely graduated HS. I don't know how I graduated HS, luck, pitty from teachers, I dunno. College is a whole different game. Even though my classes are small it still not like my teachers go home and worry about particular students, I'm not going to get extra help if I fall behind. I need to get my ass in gear and do it myself. I slacked off summer term and while I did great in my writing class (B final grade), I sucked ass in the class I was most excited about, I don't know how it happened. yes it do. Geology was so exciting, I was so looking forward to it, but I did it online, more or less self paced. I can't do self paced. ADD doesn't let you just decide to do homework it makes you a procrastinator. I am a professional procrastinator (like now I should be reading history or oceanography, not blogging) I can't only blame my ADD, many times I thought, I should be doing school work, reading, out doing field work. but instead I focused on Paul and the deployment and after he left I just sat around being sad. C that is what i got in Geology, I am so disappointed in myself, that class was cake, I could have easily gotten an A, no papers to write, no major research. just answer questions and read the damn book, and I couldn't do that. Well it's not going to happen again, that will be the last C, I am going to kick ass this term.

I am not sure yet my exact plan but i'd like to get my Bachelors in History & Environmental Management with my minor in Natural Science (I think, may change minor again) by the time we leave here, so I can go to Grad School when we get back to the states.