yesterday i went to the er

they are 99% sure i am having a miscarriage my levels are dropping, bleeding is getting heavier and i have mild-severe cramping. i am really okay, considering. i feel like a pin cushin, they took alot of blood and i got an iv, i also found out that i have A- blood and that means next time i get pregnant i have to get a shot right away ( i also got one tonight) i still dont quite understand why, just that its really important. i dont know why but more than anything i just feel really stupid right now. i'm okay, looking on the bright side, now i have one less thing to worry about as we PSC across the globe, and now i can celebrate my husbands promotion at his wet down with him, and now my dad wont miss his elk hunt because he used up his vacation to come to japan to see me. the timing was off and it really didnt feel right from the beginning, i think my body was trying to tell me something was wrong, i know its normal to worry, and dont get me wrong i went through moments of excitement, but mostly i just didnt feel like it was really happening, i think thats because part of me knew it wasnt. i have cried, and i am sure i will again, but i am strong and i have a very strong husband to hold my hand, we will have our own angel in due time, just not yet.
i really do appreciate your good thoughts. thank you.